ok, i know i say this everytime, but i really am sorry that i haven't updated the novels lately. in all honesty i've been trying but i'm at a lack of inspiration at the moment. i blame it on personal baggage. but i really truly am sorry sorry, i have been checkin out deviations though. you guys are great! but then again you already knew that lol. i've been tryin to get to comments, but half the time i don't know what to say. it's not that i don't appreciate them- I DO- but like i said i'm just a bit strung at the moment.

Why is that you might ask? well, i work about seven days a week. 3-11pm every night sometimes later. i'm going through a lot of work related stress at the moment, because i'm going through my supervisor training or as we like to call it stupidvisor training.

I also have these stupid rumors to deal with. I realize most people don't know and that's fine, but when i go back home and have to deal with stupid high school drama it's a bit ridiculous. No, I'm not married. In all honesty I'm not sure if I ever want to get married. I've had my heart broken one too many times and i'm not sure i'm able to open up and trust someone that much again. No, I'm not engaged. I WAS engaged. -nods- but he broke up with me and took me back and then gave me some bullshit stories and then i broke up with him. once again personal drama. I dealt with it. we're cool. moving on. Yes, I am in a relationship. Yes, he's an army guard. Yes, he's 27 years old. No, we're not getting married. No, we're not having kids. No, he's not a bad person. No, I wasn't forced to do anything. Call me whatever like. Go for it. Bitch, slut, whore. whatever. In all honesty the people who are doin all the talkin, I call them worse. -shrugs- I like being treated like a princess, like i'm appreciated, like i matter to someone. You wonder why it's over? well, because i'm not as good as her and i'm most certainly not your mom. deal with it. i'm not angry, i'm just hurt about the things you said and did. I tried so hard to forget, but when it keeps getting rehashed it's hard to do. i'm not gonna say i'm sorry. I don't have a reason to apologize. don't like it? too bad. I'm HAPPY now.

I finally know what happiness is. I hope you get to find it too. Good luck to you. Just please would you and all the people i went to high school with just drop it. I'm moving on.